I am sitting here drained both mentally, physically and emotionally that I am back on the job hunting scene. This time it’s hitting me like a tonne of bricks.
I am having another leering question over my head. What do I want to do for a lifetime career? Asking this question to a young high school student is one thing but asking a 28 year old who still doesn’t know what to do is another thing entirely.
Sitting in the hair salon having some much needed Me Time I have the time to ponder over what I want out of life. I know jobs are stressful and there is no job that isn’t.
I have always had this problem where I’d juggle around with other careers in my head to see what would suit me or what I’d be good at. Hairdresser, Retail Manager, Policeman or a YouTuber. There are so many things to be that it’s hard to choose from.
Imagine when you were a kid and your Mom or Dad told you to pick 1 candy from the sweet shop. Your young mind is baffled by the colours and arrays of sugary treats that you can’t just pick 1 out of so many options to try. Unfortunately as adulthood syncs in you can’t ‘try’ everything. Sooner or later people will be asking you to choose a career just to move on with your life.
What if I never find a job that makes me happy? What if I don’t find a place that accepts me for who I am? Questions boggle my mind lately and it is disheartening that I can’t find a career that makes me feel like I am helping people rather than just being a number on a payroll.
This is my second quarter life crisis and it’s more daunting this time round especially when your confidence is knocked.
It has dawned on me the idea of starting my own business and the way I want to run things. No boss just me as the boss.
I’m not a stickler of being told what to do but I don’t want to have somebody looking over my shoulder pointing out everything I’ve done wrong every five minutes.
Honestly I don’t know what to do with this idea. I’d love to open a Wellness shop but it’s a risky business to get into with online businesses taking the lead with the ideals of it all.
I would love to open a reiki coffee wellness center. I am leaning towards the idea of being a full-time spiritual healer or teacher. Along with the idealism of a life coach, where I’m helping people out and who have been where I’ve been.
On the path not knowing what they want to do.
No matter how much you hate school or hated the routine. Nowadays I yearn for it, the comforts of knowing for the next 6 years of my life I had a place to go and study.
I’ve recently lost my job and I am losing my way very quickly. I just want to be able to move on and start my life. Even that taster of what I thought I wanted it wasn’t what I expected.
Dipping my toes into the lukewarm waters of cooperate business showed me that it wasn’t for me. Despite thinking I wanted that, I’m how having a crisis of changing careers to move on and try something new.
I have the stale taste of life lingering on my taste-buds and I want to be enlightened everyday to be fulfilled. To come home exhausted knowing I did good rather than drained from repetitive criticism. There is a difference between criticism and helping me learn.
I was shocked by my recent experience on the first rung of that career ladder that not everyone is there to help you.
I never thought I would have been a victim of this but looking back on it now I clearly was.
I opened up that I was a Holistic believer and tarot reader to my co-workers. Majority just wanted a reading but there was one in particular that would call me out and tell me ‘it’s not real’ ‘it’s not accurate’ ‘go ahead predict when someone will die’. Like, whoa! What the hell is that attitude and secondly if I was any other mainstream belief system it would have been called out on and that person would have been given a telling off.
Now I know it was stupid of me that I did not report it but I was new to the
I did not tell anyone how I felt so I started degrading the fact my belief system was a ‘hobby’ which made me sick to my stomach to say those vinegar riddled words.
Never deny who you are ever! Your belief system was broken and now I have found something that is attune with my philosophy of life. As you may recall here in this blog post. I have learnt a valuable lesson from this recent job and I know I need to stand up for myself more even if I am a newbie in the office. HR is there for that reason I was just too afraid or shy to say anything fearing I would lose my job for that reason. I lost it for other reasons of lack of training and all that but never feel that you can’t report something. Also join a Union to represent you in situations like these.
Ending of a Chapter
This chapter of my career path is done and dusted but I will be moving forward into the next fold of my book. Life goes on and new opportunities arise when you least expect them.
Who knows what is coming up next in my life but at least I know that lessons have been learnt and I can move on from this phase.
Will be writing here more too I have too many unfinished drafts for posts so I will most certainly finish them off!
Until then adios!
See you next time my lovelies!